Monday, August 18, 2008

sianz ..la...duno wad to post lor...hai alos duno wad to write lor ....todaay in sch ...i was left with desmond n myself in the chinese class...lor....den i felt so awkard like that lor...desmond told mi nt to be angry with him le ...bt it seem so impossible...i wish that i can pul back this frendship..maybe i juz ned some time la...juz giv mi somtime lor...sianz...whenevr u talk 2 me ...i cant satnd myself think of u tat time that made mi so angery...juz giv mi somtime la...
today in sch ..she still veri cold to me lor...i dun expect anything from her...juz wanted to be frens ...bt i seems so hard...there seems to be a larger gap than b4 that even stop us from being frens...although i tried veri hard nt 2 think ...bt i cant ...my mind keep flashin the memeries betwen us la...she is still so cold to mi..i noe ..i dind'nt wanted to force her...if she feel awkard ...i will try 2 keep a distance from her ...bt ..bt ..bt...4 many days alr...i did nt talk to her ...to make sure that she is happy...i did nt wanted her 2 feel guitly ...i dint want her to feel sad n lots of pressiure.....that us y i keep a distace from her...nt even dare 2 sms her...somtimes i regret startin with her...maybe if we did nt start ..i m still be able to watch at the side ...help her quitly...bt is quite diffcult nw..
dun wan to tak leh...or else emo angle is controling mi...im nw fightin with it...n i wish...i can win...

BLINDED BY DEATH!
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