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2009-11-24T04:02:00.000-08:00

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2009-11-16T18:36:00.000-08:00

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2009-11-16T18:25:00.002-08:00

hi i m here

i am at huiqi house now,
planning to do the props.

byebye

2009-11-16T18:25:00.001-08:00

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2009-11-16T18:24:00.001-08:00

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2009-10-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

2009-10-30T04:16:00.001-07:00

hahahahzzzzzzzzzz... grad song
find the lyrics meaningful

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

Chorus:
As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

Repeat chorus

La, la, la, la; yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la, we will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

2009-10-16T07:34:00.001-07:00

erm , i m nw trying to use my ph n post n c if possible or nt .... hahaz .

2009-10-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

erm , i m nw trying to use my ph n post n c if possible or nt .... hahaz .

2009-09-20T03:53:00.000-07:00

2009-09-20T03:41:00.000-07:00

This few days i had been veri lame...veri veri lame ... dots .... lats fri satyed in sch ...ms lim went to student hub and gave us tuition or remedial lesson...it was damn funny man....hahahahahzzz.... we talk bout a lot of stupid things...thn miss lim explain to mi on electricty... about voltmeter and voltage... y voltmeter cant be put in series...all bout potential diff.... nw i become more confirm that i m a bio preson... i reallly cant take physicss... anyway i put tripe sci liao leh... nvm lah...hu cares... dun even noe if cn go in or nt .... nvm lah... nw juz concentrate on studies...this few days i fing my self veri slack... wake up !!! i cant be so slackkkk.... i muz jian chi xia qu...( i will trrryyyy)... hahahahahahzzzzzzz .... any way i gt alot of photos to post ..bt dun even hv the time... posting photo requires alot of time... sianzzz...

2009-09-17T05:45:00.000-07:00

i knew that my blog is dead...i noe that i hven post 4 a long time liuao... bt nw really need to study for exams .... eoy coming... veri important ... streaming...anyway this few days ... alot of things happened in class... ppl do all king of fuunnnny thigs.. smthtimes it is veri scary... weird ... although i dun feel unexpected, bt i stilll feel very funny... this fews days i feel quite happy...probably bcoz that everything is settled... 2nite i had to burn the midnite oil.... parent they are goin to burn the hell note for the seventh month as 2moro will be the last day.... i had to go out tomoro again ....sianzzzzz.... force to go out n eat some duno ad dinner with some duno wad frens of my dad.... will be meeting those uncles and anuties and u will have to say hi to all of them or else thay will say what u had changed ... become no manners... all those silly nonsense....sianzzzz... shld nt be goin bk malaysia for mid year autuumn...a lot of things happened in malaysia.... aiya ...siazzz. why things become like this... this is reallly wad i call it unexpected man...

2009-08-22T21:23:00.000-07:00

hahazzz... yst went to sing k with mel and juju.... wth ...we made the decision like at 3++ ...haahzzzz ...like that also cn ....went there thn damn high man...reach there like about 6....thn sing till like 9++....

2009-08-21T21:38:00.000-07:00

好久没见了。最近考试，有点忙。
说到考试，就感到非常的怪。我的数学，似乎没有什么保握。我的答案，与别人的
答案非常的不相似。对于好成绩，我不敢期盼，总觉得好成绩是难以得来。甚至
有一种望尘莫及的感觉。科学的成绩还不错，但是父母总是对我的成绩感到不满意，
七分的距离，对他们来说，是非常多的。
有些人说，不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。但我却不这样认为，我认为曾经
这两个字非常得"毒"。我曾经拥有过，我曾经年轻过，曾经快乐过。当你把这个
两个字说出来时，就好像这些事不会在发生。它似乎变成了一个用来形容往事的词
汇。以变成了past tense 。至于哪个桃花，以变成昙花了。。。

2009-07-05T02:38:00.000-07:00

OOH!!! hahahhahahaaaahhhzzz.... kk... the down payment is down yesterday... the option form is signed ler...hahahazzz... everything is alr confirm...bt dad change floor liao...nt 7th bt 10th ... 30 thousand more... bt tats nt i choses wan ...my dad wan tat... dad ask mi thjis morning ... why did he buy thta condo ??? he find himself funny man...y would he buy a condo that is more expensive than a 3 storeys terrace... sayin it in a bad way ..he finds him self stupid...he say that i made him blur...sort of like castingk a spell on himmaking him buy man ...hahahazzz...

2009-07-03T19:58:00.000-07:00

I am happy!!! maybe nt juz happy ...bt very very very happy...jubilant! i should say... a few more hours to go..thinking of it ...makes me feel nervous...hahazzz... can even feel the cramp in the stomach when i am typing nw...Ahahahahahsss...aft 4 more hrs... the down payment is paid... and that is mine ( sort of)... hahazzzz... that sounds so evil...wish that my dad does nt change his mind... its damn nice...bt even if the downpayment is paid...if anything goes wrong(CHOY!!!)... I still cannot get it man... when my dad drive mi there the show room... i truthfully nvr thought that he would buy him man...cuz he always bring mi there and nvr buy it... i saw the show room... the 4 rooms one ... it was so nice... there are sort of like two master bed rooms...one bigger that another... bt both with toilets...hahaha...nvr saw such a big condo b4... when my dad ask 4 the price...i heard it tooo...n i thought my dad would nt buy it as it is more expensive thn a terrace hse(1.4++ million)...he would say that buying this hse he will rather buy a terrace ... so the agent continuse to show us aroung the hse and went to look at the model...thn the agent tell my dad the storeys left ... thn suddenly...or rather ... unexpectedly... my dad turn to ask mi if i wan the 4 room wan or the 3 room wan..Greedily... i ask 4 the four room wan... thinking that he is kidding with mi... thn he ask mi which floor i wan ... i was totaly shock... i nvr believe that he will ask mi man...bt in the end i chose seven floor as he stronly recomend that the 7 floor can c the swimming pool when sitting dwn...which means the view will be veri nice... i luv it ... ya... if nthing goes wrong ...in 2 yrs time ... i will be there... living there... n by that time i will b sec 4 ... shld i say the condo...shld nt...till the dwnpayment is paid...hahazzz...
anyway is a two word condo... the first letters of the two words is k n r ..hahahz... so retarded ...K.R.
jiayous :)

2009-06-19T20:29:00.000-07:00

2009-05-26T04:52:00.000-07:00

juju...haahz...y u dun wan mi to post chi...cn learn chi wan wad...anyway 2day eng camp is quite fun ...at the start it was veri boring ...everyone wanted to slleeep wheen doin the cheer...i also veri sianzzz...bt aft starting the game...we all gt so high...haahz....then when we go past station i saw a bird... adead bird lying on the floor ...wth...is so pathetic...thn i saw some studdents from other classes kick it...wth ...they r so eveil...i mean since the bird ids alr dead ten ju zleave it there la ...y go n killll it...so patheic ma...i pity the bird...anyway we stay tilll 4 tooday...started bitching about other class councillor...haahz.....we stay till 3 ...bt still gt the cheer ...so muz till 4 lor...the cheer there we shout dammn loud man...haahz...bt onl gt a few of us only lor ...wth....i 2day veri sianz...nth to do ....n josh quek...that time gt call u ...is u wan go mark hse thn nvr come wan der lor...is u dun wan go wih us nt we dun wanna go with u l[o r....josh quek..l.u undst ....!!!!

wadeve ...2moro still need to cheer 4 the soccer gurls in singapore polytechnic...juju tell mi thta she willl sleep there....bt it willl b so noisy ...u cn sleep meh...2moro muz b hyper high.(wth...they mean the same ting)...

kk gtg ...reminder:rmb to tagged

2009-05-26T02:45:00.002-07:00

2009-05-26T02:45:00.001-07:00

我的只剩下自己了，没有别人。。。
但我始终还是不肯定，
不知是否只是真确的吗。。。
爱是世上唯一的一个力量，
能够化敌为友，
也是唯一一个能量
能够让人化干戈为玉帛。

人总是喜欢把所有的东西放在心里，
永远不肯把它解放出来，
就像我一样，将永远被捆在这个孤独与孤单的酒店里，
是否能够走出酒店？
我还不知道。

是否有信心，答案还是个未知数。。。

2009-05-26T02:24:00.000-07:00

每晚回到家里带半残废身躯
入睡床没法睡杂念来又去
往往仍记起你过去共你一起
所经过多得可以编写几次传记
分享我的兴趣分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱等于给我圣水
你去后令我发现笑声有罪踏步也失据
剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

惯了共你一半吃喝共你一碗
是幕僚是友伴幸运和自满
这晚上再想你记挂共你一起
初经过的多么美多么回肠荡气
分享我的兴趣分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱等于给我圣水
你去后令我发现笑声有罪踏步也失据
剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

实在是世事难料剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
最绝情是剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

我已经逐渐得爱上这首歌了

2009-05-24T05:47:00.000-07:00

yeah!!! juz change a blogskin...wth...cant find tat cantonese song ... sianzz

that day ...diana ask mi if i hv any prob...i told her no...bt i reallly cant say that in my heart ...alll these things are kept in my heart veri lonh...n i nvr let them out b4 ...nt to anyone...best frens,parents ...nt to anyone

mrs wong told mi to ddraww a clown that day...n nshe said that tere is alot of internal thoughts within mi...n that true...alot of internal thoughts that i cant say .... i duno when can i get out of this ...maybe it will "accompany" mi the whole live ...maybe if i gt that thing done ...i said may be ...i will get out of this live...i duno wad to do ...from that day i gt my results ... i started to turn veri lost ...i reallly duno wad to do ...i would juz stare 4 the celling 4 hours bt i really duno hw 2 do...i feel so empty ...maybe is bcoz of the aft exam...nth to do ...that is y i feel so empty ...that is y i feel so lost...maybe i shld keep myself busy...packed with work...dun stop...so that i dun tink...

anyaway ...this few days feel so empty...thx to my kor ...erm the kor in bowen ...which is that act cute, retarted yi xiong la...thx...ya ...so u act cute bt u dun wan mi t=o say that u act cute which means that u r saying tat u r really cute la...hahaahzzzz

kk gtg
bbbbbb

2009-05-20T04:53:00.000-07:00

Wth...2day is juju bdae...happy bdae...hahaz...2day in sch alot of things happened le...at first gt the wad stupid councellor theing wan ....than smth happen between hazel n lesly...then made everybody sad...then i went to talk to mel...bt in the end mel scold mi the f word...duno if she men it or nt...bt i talk to her then she suddenly scold f then she walk away ... sad at that time....frens ....a best fren scolded mi smthing like this ....i almost wanted to cry....i dun understand y muz she say smthin like tat....bt i dun feel like saying too much about this ...cuz duuno if this is true....sianz..wanted to call her to resolve the prob...i hate it....there is alot of internal thoughts in my heart ...bt nvr dare to say in out ..i may look normal n okay ...bt dep inside my heart...i m undergoing lots of thooughts n internal arguement....i cant let alll this things out to anybody....i wish...this thing will go sooon...........

2009-05-15T06:27:00.000-07:00

2009-05-14T04:50:00.000-07:00

Yeah...exam is finally over....cool....wth....actually nt really over la...still gt art bt hu cares...anyway today aft sci paper went to juju hse...hahaz...went swimming ...yaeh...that stupid scurity guard..wth... i wear the clotes he dun alllow...muz force mi to wear swimming costume...so bo bian...hv to go up to juju hse to get a trunk....bt juju hse hv...still hv fun ...bt te stupid guard keep on loooking at us lor ...then like keep on picking on all of us...bt ..hu cares...aft swimming went up to bathe...yeah....bt that evon i bathing he keep on opening the door...wad wrong with her...anyway ...then went compass to buy takeaway 4 subway...hahaz...nice...roast beef +duno wad sauce lar....then came bjk eat alot ...hahaz...make untill veri messy ...i went vacuming n end up vacuming a plastic bag in .....hahahahah....anyway yixiong came ltr.....call him to play with us he dun wanna play ...call him go jump la...kk gtg bb

2009-05-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

wth...2day eng paper nt that easy...nt goin to flunk..bt dun tink can score veri well...wth...that paper one i dun even noe wad to write lor...vocab? gd phrases??...i write stupid tings inside....wth....could not even expain satisfactorily why i had decided to go against...every time i tried to reconstruct my internal arguments tat led mi to my decisions...they sounded feebler to me...this few weeks ..becoming more and more vulgar...to many ppl nt verivulgar b to mi ...yes...i started scolding BITCH...bt hu is this bitch ...is that women in 2e2...dun wish to say uch about that bitch...ruin my blog...anyway choinging 4 my sci ...trying to stuff ligh,energy ,respiration and d&t into my brain....sianz ...nw no mood to study...nvm ...decided to go out nw...juz wander off somwehre la....tomorrow then choing...anyway that day nite thx to mel calling mi to choing...n i did it ...Yeah!!! gtg BB!

2009-05-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

this r my sis ZILIAN...

2009-05-04T04:53:00.000-07:00

2009-04-27T23:26:00.000-07:00

yeah ...we won jthe debate ... is like a miracle la...we did nt even prepare bt e1 prepare alot...i was the first speaaker n i spout nonsense...i onli prepare the debate onli in the morning ....hahaz...zlack...then the stupid andre dun an to d ebate anymore juz that e1 no members cried ...bt truely they prepare a lot ...and we juz slack...omg i did nt expect thhat diana lau saw my blog...hahaz wth .....so i hv to treat her bubble tea ...diao .... nw mdoin newsmaker bt ...i slacking ...posting juz vbcoz they say i nvr post wad the hell....nw i hear hq saying wad say ...aiya the teacher checkinh ...ltr hv to go out of the the lab...kkk...bb

2009-04-24T02:28:00.000-07:00

Cool!!! gt bronze 4 chi drama...yaeh...tat is like a miracle to us alr...diao...yah..the worst thing was jthhat i 4gt my lines ...bt lukily only tose actors found out ...even my instructor did nt fing out wad the helll...lucky...hahaz...n i did it ...i manage to take of my skinny jeans at the backstage without being seen...hahazzzz....lucky...hahaz...luckily tat i am a veri trendy person in the script...so my hairstyle n my make up quite ok....some of my frens...quite pathetic...their hairstyle...omg!!! so retard ... bt they didi veri well tat day ...n i thx them...yah... bt the person put my lipstick untilll veri red ...then it look damn funny ...does nt match with my foundation ...wad the hell...then go bk ...i have to clean my face with the make up remover 4 lots of time to gt rid of my make-up...wad the hell...the foundation was like so thick....then cam ebk to sch ...wanted them to showcase ...bt ...sigh ...tey all dun wan ...so dun care le lar....dun show case le...

choir gt silver...gd alr le lah...bt they nt happy with it le...btw i really like their dancing song...its damn nice...joyce like damn sad ...so she dun wan mi to mention about choir in sch ...hahazz... i told diana that i will treat her boubble tea if she gt bronz e...bt she did nt....bt i will still treat her ...(only if she c this post n cum n fing mi to treat )...sso diana i owe u 1 or maybe 2 bubble tea ...i will treat u if ou gt chance...so dun wry ...try harder 4 nxt syf...

hahaz....2day gt the wad stupiid interviw about goin to taiwan...omg so diff...duno hw to ans some qn...n some qn ans wrong ...wad the hell..... nt too sure if cn go taiwan...cuz i m pr ... sigh!!!bt i really wan go ...although i went b4 ...bt i still wan go!!!
kk dun talk le bb

2009-03-15T04:31:00.000-07:00

2009-03-15T04:23:00.000-07:00

DIAO at nlb take pic hahaz

2009-03-15T03:22:00.000-07:00

2009-03-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

haahz...finally post le...dun say i nvr post then wad my blogg very dead...yesterdsy during mr rahmat lesson we keepon taking pictures withn joyce n mel ...then in the morning we go the wad councelloor badge thing ....then damn embarassing la....afiqah go up first ...then she veri kan chiong ...so ms gah say she veri kanchiong the wanted jessalyn go slower...bt so unluckily jessalyn did nt hear ...so she told then i hv to go so slow untill i loook so awkard ....i hvv to stop b4 i bow la ...wth....then today in sch nth much la.....we hv the dun noe wadP.E test ...then still hv pratical.....i duno wad i doin lor...then during chi lesson it was like damn sianz la...dunno wad thee teacher doin lor...then sudenly hv suprise test ...then she say wad at the june hols go wad china ...then i like wan to go...then after asking hq them they say they dun feel like goin...coz if go china cant go traiwan ...so i say i dun wana go coz i wan go taiwan ...then ltr mr rahmat lessons ...2 couples were like so sweet ....bt to protect them...i wont say ou he name...dun wory ...anyway i hv also be warn coz teacher visit my blog omg....then is CE thenjthenmr rahmat give us bk the popetry test omg ... i almost flunk...aiya bt anyway hu cares la ha...then the evon n amanda 2day keep on saying sry to mi... coz they broke my stylus yesterday...diao...nw at the paragon clinic...my dad wana c doctor...n thne class tee thing haven settle yet ...wth...aiya dun talk le la...kk...bb

2009-03-10T04:52:00.000-07:00

yeah finally blog le... diao ...alot ogf ppl say that my blog is veri dead so i m trying veri hard to make my blog alive again..........ya so wad shld i say..aiya tis few days alot of things happened 2day....frens ...aiya ...2day someting happen 2 s audrey tang n melissa lok...they were frens b4 bt nw...aiya duno la ...dun few like noein too much...btw the class tee things haven do yet ...y like that...sianz...n today damn funny.haha...mr rahmat 4get everyting about today test haha...k la dun say le bb....

2009-02-21T18:57:00.000-08:00

that day i hv my appointment at hougang mall...and frens went with me as some of them hv cca...that start at 3.30 ...i went to my dental first n then went to find them ...at first i was quite surprised that they will eat pasta mania...nt nvm ...i went with them ...tat was the first time i ate pasta mania ...n when i went there Mel Diana Jamie Joyce were eating already bt nvm ...both Audrey haven eat yet ...same 4 josh...josh didn't wan to eat at first ...bt after finding out he hv so much money left he decided to eat la....so i went to order too ...that meal cost mi almost 1o..bt nvm that was the first time n it was quite nice la...after finishing..we start to take photo n nxt is some of them ...

2009-02-11T02:30:00.000-08:00

haha this was cny at malaysia..givin angpao

2009-02-11T02:14:00.000-08:00

dun say i nvr post le ...i knw my blogg is starting to rot le ...then i will try to make it from roting k?...bt i realy duno wad to write le...sianz...frenships...sigh...
i think that i m facing the same prob as josh face...sigh ...2day we discuss on the class tee.n the the whole class go on majiority therefore the choses pink ..and ppl hu dun wan pink say tat i m biased cause i vote on pink...sigh..bt i did nt forced them to vote wad...i knw in some part i may be biased ...but when te 2nd time they chose 4 blue i juz say wad blue they wan ...and it is diff to put on the wordings n cant match with our sch pants...bt wad can i do in the end i get scolded by ppl...saying that i m biases...aiya i will still apoligize la...sry...
dun say ler la ..say untill everybody so unhappy...btw...change blog skin le lar bt y still nobody tagg..arrh!!!...aiya talk untill here la ..bb

departure at taiwan

2008-11-26T00:53:00.001-08:00

sigh ...hv to leave taiwan so fast ...duuno wae to do so use their internet service to blog la...sianz...nw8ting 4 that stupid plane to come ...buy a lot of things... means spend a lot lar.... erm...theswe few vdays pin taiwan quitje fun la ...although nth much to really palh bt alot of things to eat...aiya...dun w2rite ...go bk then write la...bb

2008-10-17T04:40:00.000-07:00

celebratin josh bdae haha

2008-10-15T23:41:00.000-07:00

siamnz diao...inw at the comm lab leh... sianz sia.....nth to do lor...sianz ...dun fel like goin home...so juz go to ms wang n try to help her somting la ...

2008-09-27T20:39:00.000-07:00

忘。。。我没有很努力要自己去遗忘
那些和日记一起收藏的过往
孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想。。。我没有很刻意让自己不去想
那些和照片一起静止的模样
我学着坚强。。。
坚强到不会学会不想，学着遗忘

还是害怕夜深人静时总会想起你
还是害怕不轻易的听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去，就勇敢的放弃

还是会害怕一个人时总很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离
我会这样相信，走下去。。。

2008-09-26T23:41:00.000-07:00

without u ,this world has no meaning

without u ,this world has no colour

without u ,this world has lost its hope

without u ,all my LOVE is gone...

i wan to use the most beautiful way

to hael my painest wound

if onli time can heal my heart

that was wounded when u leave mi..

my BLACK gloomy emo angel

has brought mi to a hotel...

i have checked in into the loneliness hotel,

can u bring mi out?

if its not love
tell me in the first place

dun pretend im not there...

2008-09-26T23:15:00.000-07:00

选择了放手，为什么要挽留
都已经分手，为什么要回头
讲好了不许哭，泪却往下流
既然不想走，却逞强要放手
为什么？难道你看不出，
我的心，正在为你哭
低下头，转身就真的无法挽留
我为什么，分了手，还要心痛。。。
谢谢你，给过我的回忆
没有发脾气，只是平平静静，安安静静的分离
谢谢你曾经也给过我回忆，我会疼惜
我会好好珍惜，这美丽的回忆。。。
天使的翅膀，带我飞翔，
带我到天堂，让我冷静下来，
可是我会加油的长大，
以后的你，一定要更幸福，
不要让风雨大败你的浪漫乐谱，
如果能够让我们在某年某月某日相遇，
一定要看到更幸福的你。。。

2008-09-26T07:51:00.000-07:00

days at east coast park...n some pic r bein FORCE 2 take 1!!!no offence...haha...so i m nt tt flirt

2008-09-26T07:42:00.001-07:00

心碎离开，是否回到最初荒凉地等待。。。
为了寂寞，是否找个人填心口空白。。。
我们变成了世上最熟悉得陌生人。。。今后各自曲折。。。自悲哀。。。
只怪我们爱得那么汹涌，爱得那么深。。。于是梦醒了，看见了，承诺了，
挥手了，却回不了神，如果当初在家会是那忍着了激动的灵魂。。。
也许今夜我不会让思念在深夜里沉沦。。。

2008-09-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

sigh...sianz...long time no post lerh!!!no tim elor...2day english exam ..damn difficult lor..wad the hell dun care about it ler la ...anyway is over ler!!!..
sianz ...need counscelign lor mayb e...i nw realy feel like crying ah.....sianz ...so long ler still the same between her n mi...wad i can d is only watch her by the side n wish her all the best ...she seems to nt noe any thing ...i tried to forget her ...bt it is diff...i try to use as many work to try nt 2 think bt when i m free...or even alone...images of her came into my mind...y smthin like that muz happen to mi ????? heaven once let mi hv her..maybe heaven think that i duno hw 2 treasure ...n take her away from mi...now i m all alone...i look normal everwherre ....i try veri hard..i can onli look at her from the side ...dun even dare to look into her eyes...fwanns cal mi 2 try to 4get her ...bt i dun tink is possible...i will wait ..i wil..
ppl may think tat i hv alr 4gten about her...as i look so normal...even somtimes i myself duno if i hv 4goten about her... bt i m able to confirm nw ...i still luv her...i always feel jealous when guyz get near her...i noe tat it is selfish...as both of us hv alr seprated ...bt i cant keep myself fro thinking...i hv beeen decievin myself for a long time ...thinkin tat i dun luv her ...4gtoen about her ler...bt no...i still luv her ...realy love her...i cannot 4get those memories she gave mi...nvr able 2 forgt...a broke heart ...even if it recovers there will stil be a SCAR...

2008-08-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

2008-08-18T05:24:00.000-07:00

sianz ..la...duno wad to post lor...hai alos duno wad to write lor ....todaay in sch ...i was left with desmond n myself in the chinese class...lor....den i felt so awkard like that lor...desmond told mi nt to be angry with him le ...bt it seem so impossible...i wish that i can pul back this frendship..maybe i juz ned some time la...juz giv mi somtime lor...sianz...whenevr u talk 2 me ...i cant satnd myself think of u tat time that made mi so angery...juz giv mi somtime la...
today in sch ..she still veri cold to me lor...i dun expect anything from her...juz wanted to be frens ...bt i seems so hard...there seems to be a larger gap than b4 that even stop us from being frens...although i tried veri hard nt 2 think ...bt i cant ...my mind keep flashin the memeries betwen us la...she is still so cold to mi..i noe ..i dind'nt wanted to force her...if she feel awkard ...i will try 2 keep a distance from her ...bt ..bt ..bt...4 many days alr...i did nt talk to her ...to make sure that she is happy...i did nt wanted her 2 feel guitly ...i dint want her to feel sad n lots of pressiure.....that us y i keep a distace from her...nt even dare 2 sms her...somtimes i regret startin with her...maybe if we did nt start ..i m still be able to watch at the side ...help her quitly...bt is quite diffcult nw..
dun wan to tak leh...or else emo angle is controling mi...im nw fightin with it...n i wish...i can win...

2008-08-16T04:06:00.000-07:00

sianz..la ...duno wad to write leh ...alot of ppl say that i too emo le ..calll mi nt to be emo...k thx 4 all ur ...frens 4eva...true frens..thx 4 encouragin mi lor...realy thx alot lor...aiya..in sch lots of things happen lor...i n desmond frenship has sore ler..is even WORSE le ...sigh la...duno y lor the joshua keep on scoldin mi like tat lor..then i told mel ..i ask her y he like that ten she also say that she can sense that he like dun like mi like tat ...maybe i think too much le la...anywmay that day the whole day i veri emo lor...although nvr show on my face ...bt that day i veri sianz ...then after that is geog lesson ...then i call joshua to sit beside mi lor ...bt he say tat he dun wan to sit beside mi lor...than after that then he sit with mi again ler...bt the geog lesson he like a diff person lor...haha...anyway y joshua score so low ha ...4 my fren test...ARHH!!!!!hazel chua also ...diana also....arrhhhh!!!! y they score so lo....n hw can audrey lim only score 1o...wth...nvm la...anyway ...i still c hu can score higher that joshua lor..haha...bb

2008-08-14T05:57:00.000-07:00

sianz...duno wad 2 write la ...sad lor...i felt the pain ....ppl told me nt to be emo ...bt i wish i really could lor ...i noe ur may wonder ...im impossible to be emo...sigh .. i m veri tired of this ...veri tireed ...i tired on puttin on a brave front ...if nth has happen ...i duno hw long can i still stand...whenevr i saw her ...i feel the pain ...i may look nomal..cheerful laugh ,play ...bt is still pain...i tired of all.tis ...y she is so heartless...she should tell me ealier ...we should nt even start..they call mi 2 relaxe ...bt i can t...i thought i hv gt over ...bt it seems so diffcult...she muz hv 4gten...i nvr gt so hurt b4...bleeding...my heart...i hate her ...bt i cant ....tis is the thing tat make mi feel funny...heart hv alr died off...is broken ...even if i joined there will still be marks on it.. the pain...will 4eva be there .....nobody noe ...nvr dares to try again..scared to be hurt...maybe she changed...or im the one hu change ...my tears r droppin ...dun worry ...i will still be myself ...if only i can stand...if only...

2008-08-14T05:39:00.000-07:00

A very dead ending
to a very dead life
i dun care 4 all the money in tis world

I've lost 1 person that luv me
then i lost everything

No reason to cling on
story that'll nvr happens

It's okay 2 cry
it's a feeling from the heart

BLACK,GLOOMY,EMO angel
taking away my smile

BLACK paradise
i lost my sunshine

I had learn my lesson,
im SORRY

2008-08-14T05:13:00.000-07:00

wah !!!!best pic...tis pic rawks man...!!!

a bit blurh leh...bt ...NICE!!!...haha

diana y muz u always hv tat fac when u take
photo

hey!!!

Jamie ...everytime u take photo u twist sems
2 be dying

so dramatic

hey!I LOOK FUNNY!!!

juz a zoom in nia !!!!

4 mad gals!!!

opps..wad happen!

hazel stop acting cute...i noe u wanna to say u
r nt acting bt ur alr cute

quite nice...bt hui qi look a little bit funny...

today...

2008-07-04T08:22:00.000-07:00

2day lots of thjings happen in sch lor ...damn sianz lor ...to day in sch alots od things happen la ...is about desmond...he neds a lot of attention he...from yesterday i can sense something has happen to him le ....he cried lor ....duno wad hapen tp him ...i did nt ask him wad happen n cheer him up ...bcoz he wont listern up...so i decided to wait ...wait til he is less angry....then i finally ask him ad him wad happen...he ask mi do i find him veru irritating...i said no...maybe he is thinkin 222 much i duno...nobody ever tjink he is irritating la ...juz tat some times he is too stress up n cant joke with him...desmond let mi tell u ..everybody hv his /her own flaws ...u canot make everybody happy...do wad u tink is rite ...nobody hates u or wad ...today desmond was so stress up tat u almost scare mi lor ....u almost cried again ...i hv 2 worry 4 him sometimes ...talkin 2 him may said tat i may say somthingb tat may offfnce him tat cause him to think nle ...he told mi tat he is veri stressssssss...he said tat mis chan giv him alot of errands n her mum giv him erand s too ...if he nvr do tis he will get scoldd ...tat wad he tell.him ...i told him everybody hv hiss own stress ...n is uz to lear hw to cope with it....at tat point i ...truthly speakin i flare up...i was veri frusfrated when he said somthing like this ...of couse i talk bk ...desmond, i mean to offence...sry if today there r words tat r too harsh... tat time it ws drama n i did nt want to affect the whole play so i didi nt say much...i hv too gave in...n by tat time the diana still laughin ...dunno hw to care about fwanns wan ....then durin recess i stay in clss talikn with hazel they all ..then i suddnly hear some1 bagin the door louldy ...i did nt care bcoz i thought they were playin...tyhen maybe some1 open the door ...i heard joshua said ...'wan 2 fight is it?! ' 2 jun hao..i look bk n i saw joshua tangled jun hao neck..then he stare at jun hao ...i knew he was veri angry,....n jun hao look scare then i ask jos wad happen he was so angry tat he did nt ans ...i was toching his hand ... his hand look veri red ...i thought tat becoz he was slamming the door ....bt then i ask audrey wad happen then he told mi that trerence n jun hao push him out of the door...then he was clingin to the door n his hand was being slammed .,.can u imagine ..slammin like this ....hw painfu could it be...omg!!!...n tat terence when i looked at him ...he syill dare to smile ...
wah ! hand pain le dun write le la ...bb

2008-06-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

sigh...long time no blog ler very sry...i also dunno wanna to say ah!!!this wek nt much things happen lor ...bt nt realy nth happen la ...smthing veri sad hapen la ...bt dunn fel to write it out out lor ...yester day...gt geog lor ...then gt the duno wad feild work la then eas discussin 2 draw tat thing la ...then i andre wanted to draw then desmond also wanted to draw la ...then i say all draw la ...bt duno y like desmond veri unhappy like tat bt i tried nt to c it ...bt i cant finally i ask andre did he notiched it ...he said yes...bt i tink he like tat la.... i like workin with him bcoz he is resoursful...dots...hahas...dun talk about him le later say i say about him again ....
So nth else la ...everything went so normal la...2day ...i hv tuition early in the morning...bt nt tat early la ... then after tuition ..do wad ???do hw lor ... duno do wad hw ..i sms that hazelnut ...she nvr reply mi every time like tat wan she fel liek killin her...say about hazel i duno y i tink of joshua la... maybe is bcoz hazel everytime call joshua to do things ba...walao!!! i tink of joshua i feel like killin him u noe...he damn jealous lor...i told him i dun like amelia le ...then he keep on sayin i sit so near to him lor ...is nt i wan to sit with her wan lor...is ms chan call us to sit together wan wad ....WAD CAN I DO??? ...lol...Even zhong kang alos dun hv jealous duno y he jealous lor...so jealous lor...i veri angry with him le... he say i sit veri near to her n i keep on talking with her...n he say tat i like her hw can it be ...then he dun wannna to talk to mi lor ...so petty lor....so angry with him lor...
Go bk to after the tuition 2day la...after tuition i do hw lor ...then my dad call us to go out n eat la ...bt duno y my mun say she dun wan lor maybe is too late le ba ...then my father call mi to go dwn le....i so angry n i say i dun wan to eat n i go out le lor...i quarell with her n the whole day i did nt talk to her till nw ...typin in 2 blogger ...
dun feel like writin le ...bb ...wish can write soon....!!!!

goin out..

2008-06-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

On tues we went out lor ...with jamie,diana,melissa,desmond lor ...i thought that day was a happy day lor ...i reach hougang mrt station at around 12 lor ...to early le l a,,,so i ask demond where he is lor ..he was at hougang mall so i went to find him lor ...he was still ok when i went to find him lor then both of us still very happy la ...then hor stupid diana finally reach le ..we went to take mrt to orchard lor ...we bought tickets 4 the kung fu panda ...from that time onwars hor...he change liao ...he semms to hav split personality ..he is 2 differenkt person lat diff. time la...i ask him wad happen bt he also dun wanna 2 ans me ..(desmond i mean no offence)fine ..then we bought the ticket n des went up to the cinema forst ..he dun even wan to wait 4 us la ...then we finally went p n watch the movie lor... the movie quite nice la ..nt bad ...bt i dun tink is btata funny except 4 some parts la...then finally finish movie le ...then we went to shop sround lor as i a shoppin hor ..i found out i terribe thing...I LOST MY SPECTACLES...i muz hv left it in the cinema ...immediatey i rushed bk to the cinema lor...bt so sway still cant find it lar...sianz le...then 4oclock reach le i feel like goin home le ...my other frens wan to go to plaza sing la ...bt i noe i no time le ...so i decided to go home myself lar...desmond wanted to to go with them la bt dun no y she suddenly change his mind ..alot ppl tell me he have a kind of attitude or he dun hv enough attention everyday go out with him like very scare his face will turn black ...in the mrt both of us dint even talk lar ... when we reach hougang station we juz say bb lor...on the way takin my bus ...i saw someone ...ithink she is jing wen one of my ex-tuition fren la...evrything was normal when i went bk lor ...eat watch half n hour of tv then go television le ...wahh lao ..i went to the math tuition hor... the math tuition sux man...wad kind of teacher is tat..when she first come in her face damn black lor..k tat nvm ..some ppl is born with tat kind of face bt she dun even noe hw to teach la ...a lot of question she giv us wrond ans n even ned us to ans her question .. la she go there n wan us to read the bk n call us to do lor ...muz as well we bring the whole book back home to do la ...sigh...nothing to say le la ...nxt time then say lor...bb

2008-06-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

wa lao .... damn sianz lor...sigh...so lonely lar..fel like goin out this tues lor!!bt my mum du n allow mi to ...wad can i do..i ask my dad n i knew tat i can go lor ....sigh...dinner was so quite tat nite lor...it was father day n i almost quarrel with my mum lor ... wad a bad father day it is!!!!i hv still hv tuition tat mornin lor...tis tues goin out duno if desmond gt go or nt lor....if he nvr go i wil be damn lonely lor..sigh ppl lokin liao nxt time gt chancev then blog...BYE!!!!

sigh

2008-06-14T01:23:00.000-07:00

Sigh...damn sianz lor ... so fast came bk from malaysia le...how time flies... i thouhght that 5 days will be enough bt it will nvr be enough lor ....hw i wish i can stay there longer ....i miss my sis a lot my home n every tin ...i wish i can go bk ther soon lor....1 more wek ..n tkhe hol will be over ..scjh life will be bk again...lots of sch wk ...lots of pressure... i wish i can treasure the last whole wek b4 the sch starts... hw i wish i can go out with my friends lor...duh...bt it seems so diff..

diao..juz change my blog skins in class really change aloyt lor ...the world is changing...n the ans i waiting 4 finnaly came ...

2008-05-22T22:17:00.000-07:00

today was the last day of sch le ... duno hv to wait until when then i can c all my friends bk lor ...miss then a lot ..that 4 sure ...today i thought we had debate bt nvr do i noe that the de bate was cancelled ..as we wanted our teacher to come n watch us ...the teacher can onlky make it on nxt ter n so debate was forc to cancelled lor.,.. the teacher incharge seem to be very unhappy with us lor ...the afyter i noe about this news .. i wanted to tell diana ....bt she dint believe us ... lor ....she quite stupid lor...y WOUID i wanto cheat her...NO BRAIN!!!! .today we stared off with the use ur hand campaingn lor...LAME!!!! hu dun noe hw to use our hand lor ... then we had to wipe our tables n chair ...n i accendentallty threw at hazel...i had pour the gif detergent on it lor n also alcohaol n also tinner ...dun no wad will happen to her face lor we almost stared a cloth ..w e were alll lauhin especially jAMIE...laugh until; like xiao like that lor..
Today i geve some1 something i hope ghat she will like it lor ... damn sianz lor .......n m still waitin for her ans ..waitin n waitin.............

boring day

2008-05-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

today was a boring day lor !!damn sianz lor ... 2day in sch we started of with the hip copy righted thing lor it ...very diao n lame...den wemt of 4 recess n when we came bk we all hv the cyber wellness things tell us lot of things of the cyber weless thingsss....thenn we start 2 the pornography talk the teacher damn pervertic lor ....
Afternoon ,we were preparing 4 the debte bb the teacher sudenly say that we hv 2 start at 2 ...i m alright ..bt then teacher say that we hv 2 drop one of our debators as one of their debator dunno wad happen 2 her la ... then we had 2 postpone 2 fri... then we wnt 2 th libirary n started discussin the drama fest lor ...then when we r discussin hazel chua la kep on sms ... the jamie n diana also not focusin in the work... then i started to laugh with them 4 dunno wad lo...then desmond started to turn very angry by then he kept on staring at us like cuttin us with his knife lor so SCARY!!!!!!!!!!!! bt we stil dun care the he wanted 2 tear his script lor....then when he wan 2 tear i was still laughing then when his preparin 2 tear hids action damn funy lor ...HAHA...then we stp doin n juz talk lor...we were launghin n desmond laug too.... ya it was fun ........bt i yhad to go early dunno wad time he had to go hor !!!!

1e3

2008-05-21T04:04:00.000-07:00

Today a lot of things happen in sch hazel n audrey tang has lot of misunderstanding between them we all wanted to try 2 help them bt it seems that difficult lor .maybe is becaus of terence lor !!!i tink all the miss understanding between them ... aiya dun say le la ...later they say i badmouth her ...
hai .......... n all my friends say that my blog damn dead lor bt i really duno wad 2 write le ...!!!!wad the hell ...today early in the sch we went 2 exursion lor .... actualy nt that fun bt the cake they like ur it is nvery ice..i tase like cheese cake ..and when u eat the felin is likke eatin sugar bt not sweet .. on the way bk ...desmond very emo lor ... i tink bcoz nobody talk 2 him ...desmond if u c this pls dun be angry....juz that u today very emo... i tink i noe y lor ...??? when is ask hazel 4 the m&n lor bt i think that hazel nvr hear lor...bcoz she was hearing the music lor...then agter that wen we go bk she ask von 4 sweet n evon also nvr hear lor .. thenit makes desmond tink that no body care about him lor .....
that all 4 today lor

2008-05-19T03:13:00.000-07:00

yeah finally finifsh my new blog liao ...damn sianz... my old blog is so ulgy..SIGH!!! my debate... omg ... stilll haven done et... diana ,andre n randell wil scold mi wan ,,,, btw i gt something on on tat day [e debate day] i duno if i cann change or nt ....N a lot of things happen in class ... dou wish 2 say llater gt any miisunderstanding;;; the drama fest ###@@ oredy cut untill very short liao... bt dunno whetther enough time 4 the play or nt leh ....a lot of things comin out bt no much time to do ...fghdfhv
my sis came out tat day n i go out with them bt they went bk very soon.. wish they cann stay longer ....misses them alot...
i m still waitin 4 an answer from some1 bt it seems like is impossible 4 me 2 noe the ans ... anywy ...i wish tat can noe my ans soon...diao LAMEX LAMEX